Confusion. Realisation. Resolution.
Friday, April 17, 2009
The feelings kept welling up inside of me since yesterday. When will it be the time to finally get what I want? But then again, is it what I really want? I keep talking about how much I want to be in business school and harping on the fact that no one seems to accept me into it. But even if I'm accepted.. will I actually be THAT happy? Seriously, I have no idea. I may even end up hating it few years down. It's just a replay of past experiences I guess. I've always missed my goal by that little bit, always forced to make a detour from the path which I chose from the start. My time in TK instead of TKG... My time in MJ instead of TJ... yet I still had many happy memories there, especially with the friends I found there. So I will accept it again. I don't care if I could be happier elsewhere so long as I was happy there and then. That's what matters most i guess. So, regardless if i got it or not, there's still somewhere to go, something to do, new people to meet. Life goes on, just have to make the best of it. That is my resolve.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10:04 PM
